I have a list. You could say it is my bucket list (things to do, be or have, before I kick the bucket).
The concept of a list is not exclusive; we all have one. From the time we are small children, we learn how to hope and dream, and we begin to create our own list of things we desire; a new bike for Christmas, a new CD, to climb El Capitan, etc. As we grow older we begin to add deeper things to our list such as inner peace. In essence the list is never "complete", and we never arrive, instead we are continually expanding ourselves to be bigger and better. We are in a constant state of asking.
When we ask, God, or whatever you call the power that is greater than you, always, without fail, responds. The part that gets us hung-up is the receiving or allowing part. It may not look like what we imagined it would and it may not come in a way you expected.
For instance, I have a deep love for bikes. I have been a mountain biker for the last 15 years or so. That being said, I never could grasp why anyone would want to ride on those skinny little tires without any tread.
However, I began road riding about a year ago and I NOW comprehend why people ride on those skinny tires; they go really fast! They also cost a pretty penny. Not having the 600,000 pennies or so that it takes to purchase the road bike I wanted, I put it on my list and let the universe take care of how I was going to get it. Then on Mother's Day of 2009 the bike showed up...for free. The frame is blue and black with a mismatched red fork, but it is mine and it is perfect. I am still amazed and deeply grateful for the bike that was delivered to me.
An increase in financial abundance is also on my list. A new financial opportunity presented itself the last week but I didn't recognize it as an opportunity until today when my good friend reminded me that, "You asked for this, and now you have it. You are going to have to take the leap even if you are scared."
This new opportunity has put me in a place that stretches me far out of my comfort zone. It has put me in a place of vulnerability and it is never easy to expose ones underbelly due to vulnerability. However, when we are vulnerable, we are also very teachable.
Once again God has answered my asking, and once again it did not look as I thought it should look. I look forward to this new turn my life has taken, I fully accept it into my life and I am grateful for it.
I am now adding a new item to my list: To shine the real me. What are you adding to your list next?
Namaste
